I said goodbye forever to 2 piece bikinis. I hate them with a passion and they hate me too! The idea never seemed normal to me…. it’s just like wearing a bra & panties, just made out of “swim wear material.”  I decided that I hate being self conscious so much, that stomach and back will just have to deal with being pale!  I bought this lovely suit + skirt at Jcrew:

I first wanted this swimsuit because it looked so much like my engagement dress:

Anyways, much like my swimsuit issue, I’ve decided to let some insecurities go. Not in the sense where I think they’re solved, but in a way where they just don’t matter to me as much.  Is this what it means to become more comfortable in yourself?! If so…… awesome!

I will also be not caring as much as my double chin, split ends, not getting pedicures (who in NYC even has nice toes all year round?!) and belly fat.  Whatever.  I will, however, try to eat better and work out more. That makes me feel better as a person to be able to force myself to do things I hate. HAHA. Wow, so grown up now! I am not hating it!