(Sorry! This post has no pictures.)
Remember WAY back when, when we used to pour our hearts out to a brilliant blog site called XANGA? WOW, I was such a child!! I still crack up with embarrassment when I read back on the entries. Here is an exerpt.
| so now, i’ve been single for about 3 ~ 4 months now and for the 1st time i’m feeling like DAMN i wish i had someone… esp for the holidays…
so i am asking my subcribers for help: HE MUST BE: #1: CHRISTIAN (not negotiable) #2: tall … so in scary situations, i know he can protect me. #3: much more successful that I am. i know i’m a career driven, ambitious, independant, woman… but i still believe that the man should wear the pants in the relationship. and from past experiences with dating losers… i’ve come to realize that being more successful than my man has been a HUGE issue. #4: i don’t want to be taken control over but led. i want to learn from him and vice versa.. #5: humorous #6: sociable (learned to NEVER date a guy that my girls don’t approve) someone who knows how to start the conversation. a man who is assertive and knows how to keep his cool in front of others. #7: must come from a well – rounded family. (trust me girls, this seriously determines a lot of things about your future.) must be family oriented #8: must be able to get along with my family. and be a role model for my soo bak, susan, & a HYUNG for steve … He must be a brother to these 3 kids, who they can confide in when they need to talk or to play basketball with when they’re bored, or just to hang out with even when i’m not around. #9: it doesn’t matter what nationality but MUST NOT be a F O B… NEVER again will i date a FOB… a hint of FOB is ok. . . not a SPLASH . . .it’s too huge of a cultural shock for me… the guy must lived in the US for at least 15 years. OOO & Must have a citizenship. greencard is negotiable. #10: love me for who i am. & not try to change me into who they want me to become. ~ now is that too much to ask for ~ so for now this is my prayer request. thanx for your time in reading through all this. |
I was single for a full year after I wrote this entry. During this year, I learned a lot about myself. Since I was 16, I was in “serious” relationships. One right after the other. Never did I realize how my self worth was feeding off of being in these relationships; as sad as that sounds. When the relationships went sour, my self worth went sour. When good things happened in those relationships, my self worth sky rocketed it’s peak.
But during that single year, I learned to be myself. Not Jina, so & so’s girlfriend. But the “ALL THE SINGLE LADIES”, Jina!
It was after that glorious single year that I met my Yug. Now while I vow, never to let the man or the relationship determine me, Yug makes sure to reassure me. Reassure me of my self worth. We give each other enough space to grow on our own and contribute to each others lives.
Has a relationship ever run your life to the point where your self worth fluctuated with the relationship?
JAC Beauty is your source to unleashing truths, myths, facts & tips of the complicated world of beauty. 
AWW OMG #8. tear :**(